Ben Mohammad

No tv in my house!!

Monday 26th May

So i completed my goal of 75 pound (with a few miles to go) in total i have raised almost 400 from the last 300 last year, for rethink which by no standard is enough for endless work i can only assume you would have had to do to get to the point where you are as an non-discriminatory however i wish that as an organization certain things were more transparent not that by any definition many would be prepared yet me myself im more than certain i would be. The point is "phil mitchell" i came into the understanding yourselves and mind charity who i will always do more than applaud for how well ran as an organization the technological part is ran quite literally u can press a button few clicks and in a country developed like england with some smart phones you can document how you move establish integrating yourself around a community of runners or walkers early risers night owls who subscribe to a similar idea with or without the campaigning part. You both as organizations hold to what i do dearly have an appreciation of the human right bill and of late how it could have been evidenced to protect transgender things of which i was less aware yet support that the arguments which trickled through in the little media i see (as quite poor defending peoples insecurities around who goes in "their toilet" i respect people have insecurities but its quite common knowledge these individuals are far more inclined to abuse outside of toilets anyway which becomes more than enough complications for their mental health evidentally as im sure them and drs themselves and evidently you guys hold too, as do i, ive slept ina toilet or two ive had surgery on my bladder very young for a bladder stone meaning i coildnt urinate, ive had quetiapine codine and anastetic meaning i couldnt excrete, when you gotta ho uou just gotta go! Yet again this idea of pouring into getting into bed with media outlets is always a double edge sword as your bills will get bigger to protect those who cant afford their bills and the same polarizing ideas around good vs bad neither served creatives in terms of advancing in themselves alone . Eg. A few in what is deemed as a not so good trust EPUT "public inquiry guys(of whom i am a service user and kind of shut down volunteer at one point potential public governor).

Bridging this gap between refining what is common knowledge (eastenders) and how the public respond to minorities or whoever is on the receiving end of potentially quite diagusting human rights breaches at a national level. By my own reflection i can see its utilty yet objectively it is no more than pouring petrol on fire, any idea around eductaing people for 30 min 3 or 4 times a week for many years of their life and the resources wasted to potentially sit and waste away  in the name of hoping to better a response to such tormenting injustices and symptoms seems so "expensive" (so redfine resources to those on budget) in each and every sense. A state of mind which questions why someone would seek hope from these "soap stars" forgive me, in the name of manufactoring narratives of which we all have our own along with an array of creatives near us in our communities in our sounds within our minds and decendencies of which are being negated via this clinicalized "be easy on the nhs" why not refine in a better way "be easy on all the most frontline ethnic minorities working within the nhs" what happens to their mental health or merely human rights within employment, better yet promotional opportunities for the sake of the salaries. Ive first hand seen peoples racism against drs and support workers be deemed apart of patients very own mental health which the same verbalizations or belches would not be used against those who look like them. I dunno how this  enters into the "phil mitchel world" maybe only a few would like to see it yet in my opinion thats what gets the ball rolling to bankrupt quicker rather than "titrative reactionary methods" of endless it didnt work never questioning why. Why? We have to teach them how to dance!! Fruits come of the labour of smiles , and what makes people smile is the coherence that comes camofalged in complexity/confusion. Concha buika states " Elegance is the knowedge of your widom and the enjoyment in the exposition of that knowedge" elegance is the  opposite of disorder it absorbs order and is beyond it on a spectrum for any man science any copy and paste scientific fact is still constarined by time to not be mathmatical , some one can come along and kick it to pieces some would say thats "progress" , some would say if its two points where did they start from ? Some would say with a memory its a circle , some could say its a triangle right? Different bank account etc...but regardless when the individual is fully aware you find elegance in movement (maybe inspired by animals not so domesticated" then i think the mind follows suit to defend ourselves and our humanity better, if peggy mitchel hadn't retired who knows, haircuts always emphasize elegance, there's no backed up claim for the baldy scratching his head with headlice right?  , to not fight with fighters who play you the same deck of cards.  Maybe thats the job of self advocating for our human rights 🤔 due to such dehumanizing treatment of eachother which i cant applaud but is always on most of them channels on them tv boxes. "Narratives" choose them before they choose you, right? You are a this or that you must respect these guys in a  this or that way. If somone was to try cover up their dilly dally antics eg. A social worker spitting out fibs maybe mistakenly yet definetly due to rags of newspapers and tv sets when it comes to identifying a protected charactics of a human with rights, act in fear of losing their iob , why should they have one, to pay that tv license?, if the recipient of such denigration is to then have to enter a tribunal for eg. Has no one, yet his humanity intact knowing full well its part and parcel of how some think and go about things in order to mantain such and such of a salary. It dont become good and bad for me it just gets closer to bankrupt for those who think more bombardment of media serves a good purpose for anyone including themselves and while maybe convinced its bad reject the idea of applying it, attenpt yourselves!! And its never a long shot to think a bunch of many years ago "sold out" journalists would hack a thing or two in the name of getting things going in that same direction "bankrupt" ,arabs say muflisoon. Just becomes a part of the day job. So i applaud your endless work which kept the website going so i could blog this the 100 is not done but you got 80 pounds towards your cause to protect minorities suffering with mental health for a variety of reasons , true hardship always welcomes some money with a smile 😃 but once you got enough of it you cant eat it and the country has a big problem with obesity so i look forward to another email of a campaign where i can stay within my bmi and support your non discrimantory campaigns yet i believe integrating can be far more humanizing away from tv sets and the ideas of standing or sitting still, much more interested in audio and  radio, you can move at the same time , yet some cant , some feel they cant , some wont , but all know deep down somehow or another they'd want to (im pretty sure) .

Love all of you there. Good luck with the oncoming mha reform.

Maybe u can hear concha in here somewhere?

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Survival #huku

Monday 12th May The interesting part to that of which would be understood after an opa out patients appointment with a junior and my nearest relative present is something I feel rethink in many pieces of literature they've produced have confirmed which is the following. The dr who prescribed me endless increases over the christmas period failing to detain who was on the paperwork to see me was to be a bit busy last minute and so sent in the junior again. The junior rarely made eye contact with me and approved of going back to the 4mg of which was all the huffing and puffing in September the Friday before i was to commence work with no boiler heating or money nor anything really yet as I stated before with that increase to assert or clinicalize fraudulently to keep me in my flat on the daily crisis team for 3 weeks preventing me from attending my job which I studied for (advocacy and safguarding) Regardless last week with my mother present the reduction back to normal was made with no eye contact made it could seem like an accomplishment it could seem quite faith inspiring into my prayers around Christmas yet in could also mean for some the end of an era. That era being if a Dr or a trust loses the capacity to detain you due to the fact its highlighted to my mother when they didntbwant us to be together for the  assessment that then what can they actually do with regards to anything other than prescribe meds. That in itself inspires short sprints at intervals between lampposts  and a sense of gratitude that maybe managerial choices shifts changes redundancies lead to the Integrative care board having to go through the council itself with reference to offering better services in the community one of which im taking part in tomorrow. "Takeitbacktothetrack" with everyone active in basildon. It would seem that was the plan altogether when everything was divided and privatised in the NHS over the years and the complexity of many way to diagnose mental disorders smi etc or at lest defining them becomes paramount on establishing disruptive business models. Of which executives don't live by the "duty of care" as the support workers cpn social workers and drs do. My assumption is the executive see duty of care as collateral of which people get smeared threatened and abused to try name and shame in the name of claims they can't back up with a judge. Now my mother realises with disgust the attempt to peel family members away from me to take away my christmas where it would only be my visit she receives evidences the comedy in the way consultants have their hands tied as well , as I've met a few drs over the years. So many deaths me and my friends no a good few friends we have lost all just people who somehow had a few less opportunities then others a few more complications then the average guy. Regardless with the opinion of the nearest relative a president on how to detain someone via the amhp its evident eput have abused this so many times I think asking for the written apoligy was a good idea because again it's worth so much to me or a man.like me when a 100000 salary public sector doctorate can't look you in the eye. I made a song with a lyric some time ago about a "beady eye" and they indeed are a long shot from that. I start my political affairs internship next month and have corresponded with my mp a good few times I wrote a good few poems of which id never uploaded anywhere before much controversy around me. I think its time the punks who call themselves professionals take a deep breath and jump ship before bits and bobs really hits the fan. I stated more than once I wish not to she'd bad light on you but you didn't believe so tried to detain me lieing to my mother, part of the job ? Teach him a lesson lol I think you should read a bit of William blake I recommend "the fly". Your scam got cut short and eput isn't bigger then goverment I'm afraid yet everyone is almost 20 stone in weight, me I was 54kg psychosis ketosis cto datex licensing homeless how many times? Called a terrorist before a tribunal. I still got my Easter this year though and mothers day let's see what the week of blessed sacrament brings down st pauls this year #believeinbasildon #ripmrharrison. Share

Great news!!

Tuesday 6th May Being on the receiving end of a successfully application to start my volunteer work with the borgen project put a smile on my face. I saved myself and will do 10 miles tomorrow to work towards completing 40 to then get nearer 60 by the end of the week. Share

#huku

Saturday 3rd May

A #huku is a short, rhymed poem, typically in three lines with 5, 7, and 5 syllables, respectively. It originated in basildon essex inspired by the disgust directed towards the Essex PartnershipUniversity Trusts attempt to take christmas away from a christian .As a flip on a haiku (origin japan) which often focuses on a nature , inturn a  selfie in nature accompanied by relections on  specific moment in time of hissyfit sillybilly antics to cover up a mess, aiming to convey a strong emotional or sensory impact to be shared on social media as a defense mecanism in the name of self advocacy and those who can only put their faith in God alone.

It can be utilsed to support campaigns in the name of reforming the mental health act.

It can be used to engage and educate eachother into thinking deeper around psychotic symptoms empathetically.

It can be used in the chorus or bridge of a "rule by 4s song"

#4snot3s

#believeinbasildon

#huku

#ripmrharrison

I ran 10 miles today and had alread spotted the mind banner on a bench at a hospital inwas detained in a good few times. I saw this bench a good couple of weeks ago and can only think of the great work Dr sarah hughes and her team must have put in to get that there i wanted to take a a selfie yet wanted someone else to take it.

Regardless this was a few weeks ago when inwas raising moneybfor mind charity at present Im campaigning for Rethink who as Mind are a non-discriminatory organization so the 10 miles towards the 100 and potentially 15 on tuesday go to rethink the day on the 6th when an important funeral takes place in my borough Mr harrison whom i never knew but others ive played on a pitch with have some my prayers are with them on this day #believeinbasildon . The oppurtunity rethink gives me today to exercise my body and creative juices as Ive wrangled a mix off of the back of this celebratory time yesterday #4snot3s which the #huku inspired to enjoy spring with some nice music. 

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1st day 9 miles of the hundred in may

Thursday 1st May I'm extremely blessed to have had a few sessions provided to me of physio due to some difficult to diagnose u juries namely so last year I had 3 sessions of physio starting in July I could have been a misdiagnosis of a genetic reflex disorder yet due to my circumstances and hypervigilance I had just worn down all the muscles around my hips and my feet were complete ketchup and potentially toenails from too much sardines fault yet after 3 sessions I learnt to rest and more importantly a ratio which is every ten kilometres rest for 7 yet what many wouldn't understand would be the rest must include stretching and also movement (How to inepret your own personal cycles) regardless being g that I need 91 more miles over the next almost 30 days 9 x 11 = 99 right so more or less . So organising this spring month of May around (20 days of 5 more or less with a 9 and a 3 km) becomes more fun to spice it up with the weather. Consistently taking into consideration the importance of recovery namely active recovery and in the meantime whilst resting attempting to get extended family to share the co tent etc with others. Appreciate the the hard work Rethink as a non discriminatory organization provide and always advocate to others to take part in these campaigns as its just a matter of getting started and I will always accompany someone to get going for this good cause. Great work 👏  Share

Convincing my friend he still has a body

Sunday 20th Apr Many have lost their bodies due to the negligence in information distributed due to voluntary amd involuntary administered antipsychotics. Even without such severe medications many would feel that pointing fingers at those that left them uninformed regarding how to turn around and help the drs and proffesionals who never make the claim life isna bed of roses for all. Turn around takes moving and the obese can't move well yet there is a glimmer of hope for my friend who I'm trying to convince that he should.partake in this 100 miles campaign with me as he isnstill in good shape and stop focusing on the past as it as will never leave you and people have got other things to do like watch Phil Mitchell. Ian beale is the highest paid actor in eastenders people don't forget them tears everyone forgets and at least wants to forget phils hand signals to deaf Ben his son (diabolical acting award). Ian Beale roasts all the tiktok tantrummers 100 miles.shano 1.month about 4 a day not a race they'll be a Peggy Mitchell waiting for u somewhere sir big picture #permeke100 #rethinkpermeke #lemonardy  Share